.. what a long, strange trip it's been.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your calls, cards, emails, blogs, good wishes, prayers; thanks for all of it and from each one of you. I want you to know I've been equal and fair in not replying or talking to anyone. All I can say in defense is that it is very hard to talk to others. I don't think I've written an email in two weeks. So it goes.
Sometimes I get misty eyed because I feel so fortunate. I'm so grateful. My treatment has been rough and I know there are more hurdles to vault, but I'm so lucky to have such a tremendous support system in place, to have so many around me that love me? I think of others that have to go through this alone and how horrible that must be. I'm grateful for all the wonderful medical personnel that are helping, the great medical insurance, having a job where they want my recovery first, the wife, the children. I am so blessed. I am so grateful for ice water, my constant friend and companion. I guess I'm grateful because I know it could have been worse.
I've spent years trying to be a spiritual person, making deposits into a spiritual account, by praying and meditating daily or trying to be of some service to others without regard for return. I now make massive withdrawals from that account daily and I am here to tell you that that account is endless, and it's endless regardless of how many or what type of deposits you've made. I turned my cancer over to God (Universe, Higher Power, God, whatever term you wish to use; I don't wish to offend any) and He is in charge of how it all will work out. My job is to try and do what I think he would want me to do as best as I can.
Thanks to Anna and Caroline, the two oldest that were here all weekend for being so helpful, and, of course, Grace. The last few days have been about Mama; Kay has had her hands more than full with family logistics. The Roberts are a tremendous family and it is a privilege to be part of that family. I don't know if you heard it, but I think I heard a little bell ring last Thursday, early am. My guess is Mama got her wings. God Bless you Mama and thanks for everything you did for so many of us.